I feel how my Angel walks with me,
creating fog that slowly surrounds my surroundings...
Have the little urge to touch that Angel.
Her white, soft... fragile skin,
wearing sweet, tasteful perfume,
driving me lightly insane.
I might love her.
I might even hate her.
Miss her, being not real
or she is real, but I just have no right to reach out my hand,
so I could satisfy my need to hold somebody in my embrace.
Our minds are for simple things...
I can't even catch her with my hazy eyes,
afraid that she might see my look, so needy.
It is so hard and that's why -
Things are not of mind to simplify
and all I can do is imagine her to grin.
That innocent, toothpaste commercial smile.
I'm nothing but full of sadness
and she really doesn't mind...
if in a moment I just disappear into the darkness.
Nothing but Bible-black fool,
who's trying to walk on... carry on,
on this jumpy ground.
No living creature is with me on this deserted road,
once belonged to God,
now to emptiness in our hearts and souls.
I'm feeling really messy...
Stealing some lines from others,
making them look like I have something in my head...
„Can I be the One, Poet, Artist, Creator?
Or am I just the kind who is helping to end humanity,
not producing innocent babies into this dying Earth?"
I am sorry that I am not that kind of human,
I'm sorry that I can't be the one who you are,
I'm sorry that I'm making you unhappy and sad with my mind, past and life,
with my words, so poisoned and full of unknown anger.
I am so sorry that my sadness is bigger than my optimistic happiness.
I'm sorry that I can't hold my faked smile 24/7 over my face
and flash my teeth everytime you're saying something that should be rewarded with it.
I'm sorry for being grumpy and sometimes isolated so I forget how to talk to person.
Simple things in this life...
and I'm failing with most of them.
Note: "Bible-black fool" – taken from - Nightwish "Song of Myself" (Imaginaerum - 2011)
"Our minds are for simple things/Things are not of mind to simplify" – changed a bit, but basically taken from - Poets of the Fall "Passion Colors Everything" (Revolution Roulette - 2008)
Listening to: Louder Than Words by Les Friction
Reading: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
Watching: The Ellen Show
Drinking: Double Coffee